Post by evenstar711 on Sept 30, 2010 16:45:56 GMT -8
Maybe this will sound odd, but ever since I've pulled away from POA patterns and the accompanying anxiety, I've found that my anxiety manifests about everything else in my life! It's good that I am not anxious about my healthy relationships, but I find myself worrying about everything else from car issues, my sports team's success, things that are completely out of my control, and the usual bills/work/money issues. It's gotten so bad lately, I have developed insomnia and the only way I can sleep is by taking advil pm. I am planning to go into therapy and considering anti-anxiety meds once I start working & my new health benefits kick in....I think I am naturally an anxious person, and having POAs gave me something to project onto. I guess it was easy to do that, than to worry about real life! I am hoping people have resources, such as other message boards, or readings, that might help me. I try to be mindful, experience the anxiety, and not let it get in the way of my life, but i am finding myself more and more anxious these days.
I completely relate. I have always had anxiety issues, and I`m aware that when dealing with POA, my anxiety goes up a million degrees, to the point where even I know its irrational. But having grown up very insecure, and never sure of anything, not even my parents` love for me, I find myself always worrying, about everything!!
I`m on anti-depressant med, but my dose is so low as to be virtually ineffective. But I don`t want to increase it, I use the meds for my insomnia. Like you, my mind is constantly running, I obsess non-stop, I can`t help myself. So its no big surprise that I obsess about my POA incessantly.
Hopefully you will find medication that will work for you, and therapy might help too. I can`t afford therapy, that`s why I`m here. This board helps me a great deal!!
I too, have a history of anxiety, accompanied by panic attacks. Thank God, I haven't had an attaci for a very long time. Letting go of the POA will most likely bring on panic,or anxiety attacks. Just like letting go of a drug of choice.
My experience was not to take meds but ride the attacks through. I did go to a local health food store and got homeopathic meds for anxiety and panic. I attended a wonderful stres relief class to help me learn coginitive ways of thinking my way out of the attack.
It'll pass eventually. Do good things for yourself, meditation CDS, calming lotions with eucalyphus, of lavendar scents are very soothing. Hot bathes with lots of bubbles work wonders.
Post by lessthanicanbe on Oct 16, 2010 4:09:30 GMT -8
I had not experienced "anxiety" per say, in the past. I did however, experience HORRIBLE panic attacks when my POA finally stopped making contact with me. I have experienced some Depression in the past, but have always been able to see myself through it with reading, and simple understanding as to the trigger.
I can recall standing in the hot shower(my only savior) and shaking....it was incredibly scary, and luckily, it passed within a few months. The more I obsessed, and wished for things to be different with my POA...the less I was in control. I had been commuting to work every day, but could no longer stand to do that.....I had to take a break from work.....it was the simple things that I could not even tolerate.
Good news.....I have not had an anxiety attack in months! Breathe...do research on the anatomy of a panic attack. There are ways to stop them from happening....and also in realizing that it a physical response to what the mind is thinking. It can be controlled.
Best advice....HOT SHOWERS! It worked well for me, and gave me time to focus on what was the trigger. Best wishes!
Last Edit: Oct 16, 2010 4:13:55 GMT -8 by lessthanicanbe
Post by evenstar711 on Oct 17, 2010 3:03:42 GMT -8
Hi guys! Thanks for all your replies! Sorry I was MIA- I started a new job and have been training/busy with that. My anxiety has been all over the map because of that, as well as about driving--I think I am developing a driving phobia- HA--but I am hanging in there. I have been in contact with my POA, mostly to talk to him about sports because our favorite team is in the playoffs. But I have not been too obsessive about getting a reply from him or analyzing everything in our conversations. I realized I am becoming more conscious about why I do what I do, AND I make better choices when I do communicate with him. I moved my furniture around in my bedroom, which I think actually shifted the Feng shui and I have been sleeping better (yay!). Thanks for the support again! I love this board. <3