I've just started my recovery journey from my last relationship with my daughters father. As you guys know we are rapidly approaching the holiday season ( which I am partially dreading for obvious reasons pertaining to my recovery) and I came up with the idea of my daughter and I taking some family holiday pics. During a relapse i extended my PoA the invitation to join and I'm not sure if that was helpful to my recovery. He didn't say no but I find myself trying to be extremely over the top friendly and extending invites to events in hopes that it changes the way he sees me so that we can be a family. I guess the hardest part is burying those dreams of having that family. Looking at my child has become a trigger. How do I sort through these feelings? And will doing things as a family help?