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Post by loveellen on Dec 29, 2015 19:58:51 GMT -8
3. pray for my house stonlen
4. need to change my lock
5. cats are cute
6. healthy and keep healthy
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Post by loveellen on Dec 30, 2015 16:59:30 GMT -8
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Post by loveellen on Dec 30, 2015 23:22:48 GMT -8
Addiction is an isolating disease.
learnt to close to people
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Post by loveellen on Dec 31, 2015 18:46:13 GMT -8
1. genius i am a gneius
2.very beatufil face ,body like a star
3. great sense of humore and great sense of art
4. have relax today,
5 this broad and group
6. higher power
7. learning to ask help
8. think ofmysle,f and take resposiblity for myself, take care of myself
9. eat and sleep
10.
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Post by loveellen on Jan 1, 2016 18:24:16 GMT -8
1. have a good rest weekend
2. go to have a massage
3. cat is sleeping, cute
4. enjoy being myself,
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Post by loveellen on Jan 2, 2016 18:32:43 GMT -8
. know more about confirm about myself
i am so greata nd wonderufl
i am genius
i have 2 nice cats
i am beatufil
i have a peaceful house
i have many flowers and tress in my house
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Post by loveellen on Jan 3, 2016 18:19:26 GMT -8
my house was stolen, i am thinking a new way about my life, yesterday, that is a big holiday, i spent myself, HALT( huangry, angray lonely and tiered)
yes, I am not huangry, not angry, veyr tiered and lonely, this is a isolation disease.need to contact with people with self-honest..
yes, I am praying, god, I am veyr grateful for my peaceful house, formy cute cats, for my genius and beauty, for my have travelled many placess in CHina and USA for current job, though it is not good for me..
god, I am praying for what I should have, god, I am grateful for what I have, and I am grateful for my chaning, to care for myself, to take responsiblyt for myself,
god, i am grateful for my lots of lovely dressesa nd coats.
god, i need do my porject, I need more pray for you gudince and leading .please, help me, help me, give me the way to go in a peaceful way.
god, i am learning to accpet love, accept myself, i am learning to change, god, i am learning
god, i am grateful for this warm broad, memembers here, no hurt no defend, no use and abuse, only love , warm encourageing and warm words.
god, I am grateful for aca meeting , recovery members, and calling from CHina to USA,
god, i am grateful for the true friends when i am in difficulties, they help me , they make me feel warm.
god, i am grateful for my food, delicious, dumplings, very very delicious,
god , iam grateful for my good heart, to warm this world
god please give me the power, give me the deep true love and unconditional love
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Post by loveellen on Jan 4, 2016 20:22:04 GMT -8
1 i am genius and smart vey beautifl ouseide, pretty face and nice body.. have great sense of humor, great sense of art , have a peaceful house , a very cute cats , prtty and funny, have lots of pretty flowers and trees, and dresses and art handcrats, earings, lots cute wonderful art things, have travelled the most beautifl places in USA and China, wondeful friends in USA. love this abroad , healthy,
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Post by loveellen on Jan 4, 2016 20:46:00 GMT -8
I am very tired every day and I cannot sleep very well becasue my 2 cats are too naughty at night, I have to get up for many times to stop them . I worred my vrey deeply loved cat was lonely, so I gave him a new girl friend, but that girl baby cat is very naughty and afraind of me , i feel rejected veyr much,
i had some interviews, but the only i really love and want did not give me the best feed back, i think i still have some inmagination about my carrer, and i stil dont know how to make balance of my life, i have aca meetings every day, that is really helpful, becuase we all shareing, and i lvoe barbara very much, her always love ,and encouragement full ofe love forever.love her.i still learning the accept myself, accept the reality, accept the truth, and pray for my higher power gudicencd
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Post by loveellen on Jan 5, 2016 20:20:53 GMT -8
i have my valus in selecting friends:
1. trust, honest, repect, and gentle to me, only this can called real true freinds, love based, real love. no laugue ,physical or mental any abuse ways..no judgements for his/her instersts.. frinanal stabale and sober,
2. prefer to , love travelling, art, have great sense of humor, beatutiful like me and sexy
3. need to take care of myself more and more...
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Post by loveellen on Jan 8, 2016 5:21:06 GMT -8
This complaint has been deleted. LoveEllen has reached her limit for the month. Susan

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Post by loveellen on Jan 8, 2016 19:32:00 GMT -8
focus on solutions ! and grateful for my growth. no perfection..
gratful
1. heal my hp! this is really big proud of myself
2. deeply know to take resposibilty for myself
3. self-pity and venting is very veyr toxic and useless, it makes codependency more serious..
4.learn to accept my mistakes and change it
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Post by loveellen on Jan 8, 2016 21:22:55 GMT -8
sometime, i think if i dont have this terrible diseae, I cannot imagin how wonderful and unbelieable amazing life I would have . based on my creative genius and outstanding beatufil and humouse, ... that life really everyone wants to have and jealous( not bad word here  :)
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Post by loveellen on Jan 9, 2016 22:43:27 GMT -8
1. stop complaing , start to work for the solution!
2 need god guidence.
3. love myself more and learn to accept,
4, begin to have my own life, learn to take care of myslef, and my own life, not others life
5.gratetful for what i have right now:
labtop, nice house, cats, travell experience, in USA NEWYORK and China,
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Post by loveellen on Jan 10, 2016 3:03:07 GMT -8
I quit my job, this is a kind of self-care,
I am learning :
1. I should not tell any coworkers I dont like my boss, they will use my words and tell my boss (me first, and protection)
2.dont belevie any promiss of job, a real mature company would not do that.my boss promissed that he would me very high if I have bonus... that "promiss " is another kind of cheating, if that is easy to make good pay, anyone else( including the boss himself )would do it, the little company boss leave big trouble and big challaneg to me, want me to resolve for him, so do not beleve boss promiss easily.
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Post by CodepNomore on Jan 10, 2016 5:02:05 GMT -8
Hi loveellen,
Sorry to learn about your new challenges. But with the help of your HP, things will get better. Life can be tough, especially at work. But as long as God cares and you keep your values and right perspective, you are going to make it. You will come out stronger, wiser, better. You are growing as it is now.
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Post by loveellen on Jan 10, 2016 21:30:47 GMT -8
I found self-honest is a big chanlenge for me . i dont like cat afaid of me , but i select a wrong one ( the lady wants me to adopt a cat, but that cat is really too scared, and far away from me ,that one made me sad, and but i very loved cute one loved her, today , I decied I dont want to have her any more.. she made me too tired. I like good tamper cat.. I dont like fiery one.. exlaining and excuse is too big for me
2. the lady who gave me the cat also cheated me, she said the cat is nice, but in fact, it is not.....but the other old guy who gave me the cat is really nice, becaue that guy is honest and real nice person.
3. diffeent level company has differnt fruits payoff, I should think more carefully about " what the job requrements what the people want, what they need, what i want and what i need, whether the boss is cheating, all of, it is not a easy and self-will "job"..
4. need god guidience. in fact, there is nobody really who care what kind person you will become but there are lots of people who dont want to see your success based on the curel compettions..
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Post by loveellen on Jan 10, 2016 21:33:03 GMT -8
I need god guidience. in fact, there is nobody who really care what kind person I will become but there are lots of people who dont want to see my success based on the curel compettions..
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Post by Susannah on Jan 11, 2016 5:39:11 GMT -8
I have locked this journal in its present form. Go to the new sub-boards to continue reading this journal. Thanks. If you want to keep a personal journal let me know and I will create a sub-board for you. Having your own sub-board means that you can start new topics and keep the threads short. When a journal gets too long people stop reading it. If you have any comments or questions let me know.
Susan
P.S. Let you inner an outer child say what is on their mind, but when they are talking cite them.
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