I'm just on a break at work and I'm feeling pretty awful. I feel super emotional and out of control with my mood. I haven't had a break down or anything-but it feels close. I don't even understand why I feel this way. I've called my doctor and begged for an appointment this weekend. They squeezed me into the schedule, so hopefully I'll get some help. I'm not sure why it's so hard to get going or why I find living life to be so awfu sometimes. But the emotional ups and downs are just too much for me to take anymore. I need more help than I've received thus far. We'll see how the appointment goes this weekend.
Post by denverdignity on Jan 4, 2016 11:01:24 GMT -8
Good for you. I have felt that way before and it is the worst..sometimes I just want a hug even I feel so much doom or fear or loathing of life..my brain goes crazy overthinking and I cant just relax and enjoy things.
Yeah. I just feel awful is all. Super depressed and tired. And I don't feel like doing anything. I feel like at any moment I will break down into tears and cry until there are no tears left. I can't live like this ongoing. I must get more help. Therapy alone is just not working. Neither are my other tools at the moment. I feel my life is pointless and empty I feel so sad and useless. And I feel physically unwell as well. Lightheaded and a bit dizzy-I don't know why though. I think I'm going to skip on the gym tonight. I'm hoping my doc runs some hormone bloodwork and some other stuff. I have no clue why I feel so off. It's pretty bad that I have no interest in anything. Anyway, I have to head back to work and distract myself until 530 when I can leave and go home.
Post by From the ashes on Jan 4, 2016 14:08:38 GMT -8
I'm so pleased your seeing the doctor Leah, your serotonin levels could be to low. I hope your not being hard on yourself for feeling teary, we like to show the world that we are invulnerable but it's ok to be fragile and low.
“I vow to be the best person I can be first. I vow to seek out only those who nourish who I am, and to pass by those who would undermine me. I vow that I will never place the responsibility of my own happiness in the hands of anyone else. I vow that when I find love, I won’t cling to it because I know that I am strong enough without it, and that there is always enough love in the world.”