Post by shastafame411 on May 7, 2017 8:25:41 GMT -8
So it has been come evident that I'm addicted to an my unrequited love. This woman probably has no idea of my feelings towards her. The thought of her knowing I like her makes me uncomfortable.
I have taught by mom that self love is selfish. In the past I have gotten better only have my nmom gaslight and bring me back down. At one I was punished for reading the Bible. If put a quote about how lovable I am my mom would tear it down and say how selfish I am for loving myself and replace it with her reality.
Where do I start. I know god loves me but it's hard as my mom would twist bible verses. Stuff spare the rod spoil the child is the Bible's permission to beat your child. The first step to is loving myself but I don't how.
Also I have experienced emotional incest my mom has made me her "spouse" and has been enmeshed. She identifies herself through me
Before I say anything, I have a question: do you live on your own or do you still live with mom?
I still live with her but I'm 33 my older sister lives hear to. In her mind being independent is not necessary
It's going to be harder for you to make progress on love addiction or anything else while you're in that environment, but it's still possible. One thing I have found, as I have worked on some of my issues I have ended up having to work on all of my issues. Enmeshment can be a stumbling block for sure. It can get better though.
I literally suffer from low self-estime and stress so I try to do my best and from time to time I go to spa or do some skin care on my own with the help of Avocado Butter Refined or any other body butter