Lately, for some months, I have been presented in the form of intrusive thoughts, an invitation down my own kind of "path". It is a very selfish path that sees a moment of glory for an eternity of darkness.
Each day, as of late, I have found myself considering my role in protecting partner and building a life that I would not have chosen for myself. In fact I have been gifted this life. It is a borrowed life that God has allowed and provisioned for me. It is a life of service to a partner that loves me dearly. My partner deserves service, protection, and honor. God has lead me to this person and connected me to them.
I am also, daily, considering tearing it all down in the most Pyrrhic victory which honors only my deepest selfishness.
So far, each day I have chosen partner and a "good" path.