After relapse in 12 steps fellowship , getting into instantaneous relationship with psychopath ( as read in psychopath free web and book) , setting up my bottom lines , and working the step. Having a new sponsor . As old sponsor abandoned me ( of course I didn't listen to her , somehow she was for most part unavailable - not trying to justify myself. Feel very tired as it's intense work,
Have also had situation at work few months ago , went on sick leave . Looking for another options , since have to support my family . Feeling to old to pursue my dream .. being professional dancer ... that came up after inner child meditation , feeling grief over my acting out, loss of dreams, innocence .. lost inner child .