Ok so I love to go to Christian gatherings, conferences in my neck of the woods. He lives an hour south. So I don't go to his area.. however there are places near me that he may show up to. One in particular that he worked at last year doing the sound system. He has asked me to not contact him so I have not. But do I refrain from attending conferences and gatherings because he might be there? I should not be fearful of any man. This would be idolatry. But I want to protect myself from seeing him and maybe a new someone. Or just seeing him... I am sort of embarrassed by how I responded in the end... I was emotional... of course my mom had also just comitted suicide :/ he was just cold. I don't expect anything from him. I just want to get on with my life at this point.