My fiancé kind of groomed me to become a love addict. Yesterday I left him pretty much only because my mom walked me through it. It’s been less then 24 hours and already regret leaving him but he won’t even respond to my texts or calls now. I feel so naive for leaving him even though he had been abusive a couple of times. That’s my reason for leaving him. But I really did love him. I feel so empty. He called me his best friend and lover all of the time. How do I get past this feeling !!
If your mother was that concerned about your safety with the fiancé, she did you a favor by getting you out of the physical situation. If she felt there was abuse or irrational behavior - I honestly don't know what your mother felt was going on - she did you a favor. You said "he had been abusive a couple of times". That is just ONE TIME TOO MUCH. Imagine if you had married him - the abuse would have accelerated. You would have been confined by marriage and living with him.
Favors don't mean that there isn't pain. Yes, you feel empty and hurt and all that goes with it. You are going to go through withdrawal from the relationship. What do I mean by that? Clinically depressed is how I would describe it. You are going to feel like a truck ran over you, turned around and roared over your remains again. The pain will be temporary (I can't give you a timeline - the strength of the withdrawal symptoms isn't how strong your love was - it's how deep the addiction was). After the pain, you will learn how to live again, but better.
From my experience, the ONLY response to silence is SILENCE (him not responding to your texts/calls - he may be in pain too - you were going to marry him!). Silence gives you DIGNITY and it is ALWAYS HEARD. Keep that in mind - even when you want with every fiber of your being to reach out to him, to explain, etc. You've got your own pain to get through. He cannot change it.
There is a chance that, in the future, he may contact you again. Be strong when and if he does. However, don't worry about the future right now - focus literally on the minute by minute. Reach out for help, talk, find a therapist, read, read, read and read some more. I give you some power vibes.