Around 4:00 a.m. a click-click happened....I always, always thought my eating disorder was my dominent problem...bulimia to be exact, and it has always, always been about that...
I don't think so. My gawd....because of here I went back in my memory and its love addiction/torchbearing/codependant, and anything else.....it's this that has been driving my eating addiction. All along. It feels shocking. My eating disorder is the top layer in how i've always tried to blurr things out and calm my anxiety....and it all comes from my love addiction...I need to just go one floor below that and find out why? I know all my childhood stories...it's just what to do with them? and then to start smashing habits with understanding.
Post by Loving My Life on Jan 20, 2012 5:53:25 GMT -8
LB, there is no hurry, it is like peeling back the layers of a onion, you peel back a layer, then there is more to be revealed. Thats why it is so important to stay focused on one day at a time, we cant fix everything in a day. Recovery is a design for living, and it might take a lifetime, but it is so much better, than the life I was living. So keep coming back, be sure and keep a daily journal, write write write, it is wonderful therapy.
Yeah, I had thought for a few years that my problem was "mild depression" and "anxiety disorder." Now I'm sure that both of those are just symptoms of my love addiction. I could kick myself for taking anti-depressants for six years while completely ignoring the 800-poun gorilla in the room.
As for childhood stuff--well, that's another reason to fork over that money for counseling.
"Sex: the thing that takes up the least amount of time and causes the most amount of trouble." (John Barrymore)