No, you're not mentally unstable. This is what Narcs do. They make you FEEL like you are losing it.
Just from your brief description of him - he earns major YUK YUK YUK - you have gained by walking away from him. The longer you would have stayed with him the worse it would have been. Two months was long enough.
At least now you recognize Narcissistic behavior and know what you are to do to walk away and heal from it.
Yes, right now the withdrawal is bad. Keep focusing on the fact you are BETTER without him and CAN LIVE without his antics. You lived without him before. You definitely can live without his b.s. again.
This is what they do. My therapist told me that my ex-PoA would try to continue to contact me, even though I made it relatively clear that I was on a path of recovery. They don't care. All they know is their 'source' (of sex, pleasure, gratification) is on the line and possibly drying up, and they do not want that. And if they sniff out any doubt or desire on our part, they will take full advantage of that.
Ex-PoA wanted me available when it suited him. But it turns out, I had the power to shut it down. And when I took my power back, I started to feel emotionally healthier and less addicted to him. Not all at once, but I took it one day at a time, and that one day turned into a week, into a month, into a year. And I have been clean and sober since October 31, 2015.
Thank you, I have set up a rule to divert the emails to junk.
If it continues I might need to contact the police
The most messed up thing about his email bearing in mind this guy has been caught cheating with 4 other woman....his email wasn’t an apology wasn’t professing his innocence it was to accuse me of lying about a guy I have not seen in 11 years. I guess he thought that accusation would promote a reaction to profess my innocence.
I won’t react I won’t reply I won’t fall for this trap again.
I will continue to focus on me my life without liars, cheats and abuse.
HaveFaith writes wonderfully about her situation. So true - these Narcissistic folk have a predictable way of acting. Once you recognize it, you don't re-think what you're seeing ISN'T what you're seeing.
CONGRATULATIONS on DAY NINE of NO CONTACT. May you be a HARD CORE NCer. There is going to come the day - before you know it - when you cease to count days of NC.
SUPER TRIPLE YUK about xBF/PoA. He's trying to get to you. Love the Narcisstic logic he's using. Nothing about him. He's an innocent, do-gooder, never cheated in his life soul. Yeah - no.
You don't have to think around his logic anymore. Next time your "lying junkie mind" kicks in and you want to break NC (you won't now) remember this email and all the other things he did - and didn't do.