I spent a lot of time and money on my PoAs while my family was desperate and crying. All of sudden, this guilty feeling has attacked me in the past few days. I call free councelor service many times. I can’t focus on thinking deeply. It’s like a panic. Most of friends are a good husband, dad , coworkers and friends to their loved ones. How about me? All I did were flirting, lying, cheating and exploring sensual pleasures. Days of regrets are going on.