Out with friends, a charity event, dinner (an expensive meal I had no appetite to eat), karaoke bar. It wasn't a great night for me.
I was honest with my bestie last night that I'm having a hard time lately. She's not very nurturing with emotional stuff, but I just wanted to tell someone IRL. She was like, "there, there." Lol. I love her, but she's not great for this sort of thing.
My other friend, I haven't known her as long and didn't want to expose myself, but I did tell her I was taking an antidepressant that makes me lose my appetite. She's the one who introduced me to the EU woman I last dated, and we didn't talk about that specifically, but she did mention that friend and some drama she caused earlier this week at a party. Hard to hear about her in a way, but then, I think maybe I dodged a bullet there.
I had one very hard moment watching this really cute lesbian couple at the karaoke bar. My envy spilled over I had to suck the tears back up into my eyeballs.
I had one really lovely moment where I was singing a Duran Duran song and everyone I knew (I'm a regular at this bar) jumped up and stage and danced along.
Thanks Susannah for starting this thread... it's really nice to read shares from others like me... yes indeed, a very quiet saturday night for me... I spent it in meditation and reading, and generally hving some quiet time with God... I do feel loneliness, but I also feel I am getting stronger and not avoiding thevdifficult feelings that I have been avoiding for... well.. my whole life until now... feeling very grateful for you guys and for this forum
'You just sit there, in your suffering, until you realise that it is not in fact your suffering, it is the suffering of all life' - Zen priest Normal Fisher
Love Animals - why you geriatric gal you! You're just too darned old to go out! (I am writing with humor here!)
The Cat Stevens song comes to mind, "It's Saturday and I ain't got nobody. I've got some money 'cause I just got paid. How I wish I had someone to talk to - I'm in an awful mess" [excuse the last line - I took that one from memory]