I am here to post this and say that recovery can be done and change happens when you work the program.
Today is almost a year exactly since i started the program. When I look back to last year I feel like a different person. Last year I was in a bad bad bad relationship and stuck in it. Addicted to him without the strength to get out of it.
I was miserable. Sick. Stressed. Treated poorly by a sick man. Not wanting to be alive at times. Rock bottom. Not taking care of myself or my kids.
I went to the labyrinth near my house in the woods. While walking it and crying and freezing I felt a sense of other people pushing me through it encouraging me to keep walking. And I did that and I went to the labyrinth today and was reminded of how far I have come.
Now i want to live and I am focusing my attention on myself and my kids. I know that I wont ever be stuck in a relationship addicted to a person.
I have come a long way and have a long way to go but I will say that you can do it too. Right now I am not dating. That will come in another year or so.
Just keep taking the steps like I did. There is hope for all of us who are willing to do the work.
"Nothing in life worth having ever comes easy" Bob Kelso
Post by brooklynberry on Apr 25, 2011 17:54:39 GMT -8
tell us how the promises are coming true for you! (I feel like I am at an event yelling SPEECH! SPEECH!) We will regain control of our lives We will begin to feel dignity and respect for ourselves. The loneliness will subside and we will begin to enjoy being alone. We will no longer be plagued by an unceasing sense of longing. In the company of family and friends, we will be with them in body and mind. We will pursue interests and activities that we desire for ourselves. Love will be a committed, thoughtful decision rather than a feeling by which we are overwhelmed. We will love and accept ourselves. We will relate to others from a state of wholeness. We will extend ourselves for the purpose of nurturing our own or another's apiritual growth. We will make peace with our past and make amends to those we have hurt. We will be thankful for what has been given us, what has been taken away, and what has been left behind.
Ditto HealthyOC's comment! "You've come a long way baby." I know that's an old slogan, but it's true! Keep it up. "Keep on Truckin..." Not sure where these 70's slogans are coming from (I love the 70s), anyway, thanks for sharing your progress.